My Precious Self

The other day I was told that I walked like Gollum. My reaction was confusion partnered with the reply, “oh…neat.” It was just a harmless observation and comment, but ever since then, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. Do I really walk like Gollum? Even though he’s not a physically attractive comparison, he does have a lot of passion behind his “walk.” He knows what he wants. And minus his intense psychotic nature, some may see his movement as sultry…..seductive. That’s a compliment, right? Intense, but also passionate and a little mysterious. What more could a woman want in her walk? I mean, I’d rather walk like Gollum than say, Serena Vanderwoodsen. She has style, sure, and she successfully and confidently walks in a pair of heels, but she has a bit more of a pompous bounce in her step than I’d prefer. And what is driving that purposeful walk? Usually she’s walking towards a life ruining scheme that I want no part of. Sorry S, you can keep your walk to yourself. A person that pops into my head as someone with a walk I’d like to emulate is Jenna Rink as the 13 year old 30 year old version of herself. She was spunky, positive, and had a different sort of bounce than Serena Vanderwoodsen. It was a positive, happy-to-be-exactly-who-she-is bounce rather than a full-of-herself bounce. Her purpose is far more positive and beneficial to all. If someone came up to me and said, “Hey, you walk like Jenna Rink!” I’d probably blush a little and say, “Gee, thanks,” and then make sure that person walked away feeling good about themselves as well. 
Think I put too much thought into the Gollum comment? Wrong. I took it much further and have started to describe myself in fictional characters. Here’s what I’ve come up with:

I’m socially intense and passionate on the same level as Sue Heck. I haven’t tried and failed as many times as she has, but I think we strive for similar things. The same is true for me and Leslie Knope in terms of our intensity. The way she feels about her friends and the town of Pawnee is how I feel about my friends, my dog, and plants. My inner-self is a spitting image of Giselle from Enchanted. In my mind, life is a musical where true love prevails and everyone dances and sings and loves one another. Hurtful and evil people are weak and are conquered by all things good. My awkward level is harder for me to pinpoint… but I think it’s similar to Ross Geller and Ben Wyatt. I see it as an endearing sort of awkward, not the kind that makes people uncomfotable. Emotionally, I am most parts Sadness from Inside Out. She’s sensitive, sympathetic, and compassionate. And she’s blue which kind of coincides with being pale….right?

Now try to picture it… a smiling, self conscious, dancing, sultry-esque walking human awkwardly spreading intense love and positivity through poorly written original songs to everyone around her. If an image of me didn’t pop into your head, you’re wrong. This is me. Who are you?

XOXO Gollum Girl